wise trees book

Don’t let resistance win

Oh my goodness resistance almost won today but I am still here. I uploaded the files for my book. I was already to do it. Today is the day.  That’s it, no more holding on to this project. The deadline is TO-DAY. I was nauseous, nervous  and scared. That’s when I new I had to do it.

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I had it all planned out. Copy and pasted my awesome book description. The listing was ready to go. I planned on giving the book away for free. It was my holiday gift to the world .I checked spelling and grammar, read the book out loud. Everything felt good. I got this, I told myself. Then I uploaded the file and previewed the e-book…

in that moment resistance showed up. The formatting was all wrong. I kept fixing it, hours went by and I just couldn’t get it right. I came close to desperately whining. OK I did. I have been working on this book for a year. Well, maybe 8 months. I went back and forth with the editing, the images, layout, font and every single detail. I still need to fix it but I needed a break.

It’s weird because I feel like this feels like a PROJECT. I mean launching something is hard. There’s sweat and tears. I certainly felt that today. If things had gone smooth, I would have just stayed in my comfort zone. I need exactly the opposite to succeed. Right? How many times have I published a book. Never. How many books do I need to publish to now what I’m doing? Who knows but I’ll keep working.

 

-There are no impossibilities

 

thoughts are things

create your heart out

Love grows

Ughh…this week was hard.  I spent most of my time cleaning up the files for my wise trees book. I am tired of looking at my laptop screen. It feels like I am neglecting my art.

I am so glad last week happened. I set out to work on my work in progress folder and all these ideas begged to be painted. The best part is I am listening.

This is an old sketch. I finally painted …

 

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I’ve been adding new art to my shop. The fact is I don’t care who likes it or not. All I feel is this sense to continue sharing my work.

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Maybe its baby steps toward my biggest project yet. I’m scared. Deep breaths.  I’m excited! I long for summer days when I work on art all day or night. No matter where life takes me, I must always create.

I painted and painted this balloon. I  kept messing up. Each time I vowed to make it work. I painted over and over again and then this happened. Not bad thanks to a little help from an eraser tool. This balloon sums up my art and every moment that led to my wise trees book. I can’t believe my book is almost here.

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I am now working on a new book. Her name is Elfie and she wants to build the biggest bestest tree in the world. She’s cute and my deadline is this holiday season. I can do it because …

there are no impossibilites.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

wise trees book

On writing a book

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Seriously writing a book is hard. I love the painting. The stories practically write themeselves. BUT it’s the editing mind games that twist you up. Do I keep this? Who are these characters? What’s the message? Will I make the kids smile? Bartholomew makes me smile?

At some point I began writing because this story was filled with lessons I need to read, lessons I need to live.

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What a lesson to learn from. Some dogs want to fly. Some foxes want to sing. Some bears want to paint. Some rabbits rather grow strawberries. Why not. For when you explore and listen to the voice that tells you the truth, you discover there’s a world of wow-a world of no impossibilities.

 

I have two books written. What I love most about these book projects is that I am learning to let lose and just create. I am learning to listen to curiosity. 

 

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Aha moment

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Just now I had a aha momet. I’ve never seen a hand written dictionary before. The writer must be obsessed with words. WAIT!  I used to do the same with my dictionary.  Not excatly, but I too love words. I’d read lots of books. And every time I came across a  beautiful word I’d highlight it in my dictionary. What happend to my dictionary? I gave it away. Why?

I have always loved words. I wanted to preserve beautiful words like unmistakable or frolic.  Hand lettering. Quotes. Books. Music. Wise Trees.  I could go on but it all makes sense. I will write all of my book ideas, ALL OF THEM…

There are no impossibilities

book projects, thoughts are things

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so I’m taking a break from one book to work on another and in the process playing around with the ideas. I am learning so much from a drawing class. I have been letting go and becoming part of the flow. This is important because you notice yourself in a trance…in the state of not making art. You simply have this idea and it takes over. You give in to it.  That is every artist’s goal because it leads to unmistakable art. Funny how I read about this today.

 

-Imagine all the impossibilities that are possible

 

thoughts are things

A writer who paints words

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There is something about this drawing letters with paint. I love the idea of writing poems and words and pictures. I don’t know but this seems fitting. I don’t consider myself a hand lettering artist because I’m not interested in perfect letters but I do love the vintage ones on old buildings. I love letters and painting them too.

 

Oh the lettering that is simply written with such emotion is awesome . The other day I glanced at a yearbook and immediately noticed the lobster font. My next thought was oh my goodness how could they not have bought the font instead of using the free version. Yes I am a proud letter nerd.

My drawings are simple illustrations. No perspective or anything like this but just drawings.. the ones in my head. My process is to use awesome color like blue and pink.

I have come to realize I will be doing three tasks this summer.

I will :

  • greatly improve my drawing because I will be drawing every day.
  • be a fan
  • gradually add my artwork on sites like society 6 and perhaps etsy

For now I got to feel the love. My first book is finished but I need to set it aside and forget about it for awhile. This summer I will be taking my book from idea to completion and going over all the ideas  and resources that helped me write the book. Starting June 21 I will blog daily about this book. Fridays will still be fun days. Not sure how I will exactly schedule this all in.

IMAG0036For now I will continue to draw and post some artwork including wise trees on society 6 and threadless. I hope to pay for the cost of publishing my book and other projects.

 

Imagine all the impossibilities that are possible

watercolor and tempera

Ever feel fear or lost and then….

you go for a walk and suddenly everything makes sense and you feel a sense of comfort and hope. Maybe it brings back your imagination and you feel a sense of connection…

Here is my latest work. Just drafts and what I felt inspired to draw and paint given that days walk.

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watercolor and tempera

Faith…

Ever have those moments where you wonder…is everything going to be okay? Yes I am sure this is one of those emotions that connects us in this great big world. If you look at a game, a musician, favorite movie, and every person you can think of…just fill in the black.  Odds were against all of these people. But why did they succeed, because faith carried them through those trials to the place of winning the game, getting the prize, or living the life they always wanted. Oh and new had just wanted to sing, play the game and it wasn’t exactly about the money or the fame that motivated them.

Right now I realize this more than ever. So just know that when it feels like hope is lost, this is just the momentum you need…

This is a Starbucks gift card by the way.1115141002