Oh my gosh working on the final stages of my books drove me crazy. There was this battle inside of me.
I keep editing because well, I don’t want to publish a book with a misspelled word. On the other hand, I stall when I’m on to SOMETHING. I do this all the time. Only these days I recognize this resistance as lizard brain.
I will never forget the day I thought I was done and IT FELT GOOD. What do I do? I delete the file I’m working on. I I actually published my first book with highlights. Yikes! Thank goodness it was an easy fixable e-book. Imagine if this edition had gone to print.
There’s so much involved in working on a chapter book. I need to find a new program to help me put together the book layout. Word is terrible. I would edit a picture and the whole layout would shift.
The best part is I completed my goal. All three books are done. I realize more than ever that I don’t need to draw or paint like my favorite artists. The world already has them. I can make mistakes.
I have lots of designs that I sketched years ago. It’s only after these books that I can share them. I’ll never make that mistake again.
I had a busy week. Got up at 5:30-6:00 am every single day with a plan. I painted, edited, scanned and set up the layout for Ellie. I never realized how much work goes into scanning all the artwork and preparing the files.
I went back and forth publishing and updating Wise Trees. I shared the book with art friends and it felt good to have them excited with me.
And then the stupid book cover didn’t upload. It just wouldn’t load. Something went wrong with the file. There it is, I had it all done, worked out, finished and the cover wouldn’t upload.
Oh but I finally got it right. I finished Wise Trees! I have been working on these books for months, two summers and …..I am reminded of some words from The Nose Knows podcast.
You get to a point where things get crazy, and you just got to get things done. You have a deadline to meet. Your adrenaline is full speed. You have to trust your instincts because there’s no time for fear or doubt.
Two days later I’m done DONE with Ellie. And done with Ana and George. That’s it DONE.
I’m using my old sketches for the artwork. These sketches are pretty good.
Scan these sketches in as images? Redraw some of the messy ones. A full color page and title page? Maybe I should outline each art piece with full color . I do like the sketches in The Giving Tree. But I want to add a little color. I have to meet this deadline. I’ll have to think about that, but yeah, I think this will work.
My book is here. Did I just upload the file and hit submit? Yup. Now I wait, until I receive confirmation that everything is ready for printing and press. Thank you amazon. Thank you wonderful person.
Funny how the tables turned. Yesterday I felt this nudge in my heart. It yelled, I knew you couldn’t do it. I saw all of the books I am working on. All of the deadlines I committed to and the hope and love poured out on every single page. I knew I could do it.
I took a break. I had some chocolate, tea and painted for my next book. Oh and I asked for help. Today I came home and in minutes finished my book.
Oh shoot now its on to other projects. I’m scared. I’m excited.
I’ve grown since I painted the first wise tree. For every wash and texture that went wrong, I learned–learned how to find my place, to practice and FLOW. Yeah I’ll write books for while. I rewrote the Ana and George. Ana isn’t a bee anymore. Not sure what animal she’ll be.
I came across the loveliest work twice. A giraffe who stands tall, his neck becoming part of the pattern of birds flying in the sky. The awesome quote treads,” I’m like a bird.” What a wonderful idea!
And the other is an I Heart Guts collection. It’s cute, funny, and unmistakable.
Both of these are unmistakable and creative. Both are created by artists who simply did.
This week I spent a good deal removing backgrounds from the trees paintings. Only to realize I did it wrong. I was frustrated and then something happened. I kept going and redid all the PNG images… ALMOST ready to look at the final book layout. When I say final I mean the first round the of the whole book put together for the first time. This tree about sums up my experience. You’ve got to have strong roots.
use an angled brush
mix various tones of green
use a mix of dry brush and wet on wet painting to get awesome tree textures
apply paint in a dab and press motion
paint here and paint there and paint until it feels right
don’t focus on one spot at the same time
-Imagine all the impossibilities that are possible.
This week I didn’t have time to paint on account of my nose wouldn’t stop running and my lungs kept coughing. I did have time to do some awesome layout work.
This idea popped in my head. I wanted to write this book for children everywhere and of all ages. I have been reading up and learning all I can to make this what it should be–a wonderful reminder that inspiration and imagination are where you choose to find them. Turns out it’s true that writing for one person is easier! That of course led me to change the order and the story a little bit. The more I work on the story the more tress I add to the story.
I went from this sketch ( p.s when you’re tired of blowing your nose and your stomach hurts from coughing you don’t care about taking a perfect picture…but should I ever?)
to this painting.
My goal was to create this place of mystery, growth, peace, wonder, and magic…EVERYTHING that love is. I deviated a little thinking of details and color to express the notion of love. I have noticed that by chance…WHIMSICAL CHANCE I draw hidden hearts. The element of shape and color really helped me out here. Sometimes it’s hard to let go but you have to do that. You have to let and just paint. Eventually you have these I don’t know what that is but I love it or I don’t know what that was but I’m not doing that again.
Once again I see just how much it helps to adjust color in Afinity Pro and I should add more spirals.
Oh gosh I love the color and another awesome tree for the wise trees book.
Imagine all the impossibilities that are possible.