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Made a Mess

The more I look at it the uglier it gets

Sometimes ugly art happens but I will give it one more try. Yeah cover the whole thing up with some tempera paint  and add some flowers. 

Now that I think of it, I’m tired. I’ve been working on my three books for along time. It’s been intense. 

-there are no impossibilities 

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I’ve been painting…

some old sketchbook designs. I’ve had these for years,  but I’ll keep painting them because I want to. 

5 minute draws, words and a new collection for the shop? Yeah sounds like a good idea. Let’s do it.

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Book Process (Part 2)

Oh my gosh working on the final stages of my books drove me crazy. There was this battle inside of me. 

I keep editing because well, I don’t want to publish a book with a misspelled word. On the other hand,  I stall when I’m on to SOMETHING. I do this all the time. Only these days I recognize this resistance as lizard brain. 

I will never forget the day I thought I was done and IT FELT GOOD. What do I do? I delete the file I’m working on. I I actually published my first book with highlights. Yikes! Thank goodness it was an easy fixable e-book. Imagine if this edition had gone to print. 

There’s so much involved in working on a chapter book. I need to find a new program to help me put together the book layout. Word is terrible. I would edit a picture and the whole layout would shift. 

The best part is I completed my goal. All three books are done. I realize more than ever that I don’t need to draw or paint like my favorite artists. The world already has them. I can make mistakes. 

I have lots of designs that I sketched years ago. It’s only after these books that I can share them. I’ll never make that mistake again. 

What a roller coaster ride…

 there are no impossibilities 

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When you get a BIG IDEA…

GO FOR IT.  I know, I’ve always known when an idea is the right one. The problem is that resistance shows up and it has for a long time…too long. There came a point when I just couldn’t listen anymore. There comes a time in everyone’s life when you can’t accept another come back tomorrow.

Yeah that line was from a frantic mother looking for her stolen child. She has a big idea on where she is and who took her. Yet the world thinks she’s crazy. Does she do what I’ve been dong for far too long. I laugh, because she didn’t. SHE WAS RIGHT. 

Sure, this was a lifetime movie but it’s a true story, about a real family, a real mother who rose above the naysayers. 

So I went from I refuse to throw out another piece of paper to publishing my first ebook. I am  almost done with the second book. I caught myself analyzing detail after detail, There’s going to be no more of that. 

I mean yeah I want to produce the best I can but I can’t go over and OVER the details too long that I forget what I am doing or why. I feel like I keep writing the same ideas and words. Maybe I am ? Maybe I need to keep telling myself this and writing…WHICH IS PROOF I CAN’T TAKE IT ANYMORE.  I must change. I am 

I want to share my ideas about love and curiosity.  I believe my books will do just that. People will be quick to say your book doesn’t matter.  A big publishing company didn’t publish it.  I  say I achieved my goal. It feels great and I have so many more projects to work on. That makes me feel free!

Ellie shows us that togetherness is the best magic. She teaches us what it means to be an artist. Wise Trees teaches the importance of listening to ideas as they ring. 

-There are no  impossibilities

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E-book is here!

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My book is here. Did I just upload the file and hit submit? Yup. Now I wait, until I receive confirmation that everything is ready for printing and press.  Thank you amazon. Thank you wonderful person.

Funny how the tables turned. Yesterday I felt this nudge in my heart. It yelled, I knew you couldn’t do it. I saw all of the books I am working on. All of the deadlines I committed to and the hope and love poured out on every single page.  I knew I could do it.

I took a break. I had some chocolate, tea and painted for my next book. Oh and I asked for help. Today I came home and in minutes finished my book.

Oh shoot now its on to other projects. I’m scared. I’m excited.

-There are no impossibilities

 

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Ugly Light

I had this design in my sketch book for way too long.

So why did I hold onto it. Well I don’t like to paint or wear black. I do like the little black dress…

Today I looked at my design tucked in a brand new pad of watercolor paper. I placed it there as a work in progress.

I painted with a deep purple.

Doesn’t the idea of a purple hat add fun to what I’m trying to say? Yes. Nothing speaks more to me than the purple tone. When you let go of what they’ll say, magic happens.

I imagine a woman walking down the street. All eyes are on her. Some are jealous. Some are uttering how much they hate purple. “Who would wear a purple hat?” they’ll laugh. All the while she is walking, smiling and wearing her hat never even noticing.

When you let go and be you, you could be Audrey Hepburn. Yes.

-There are no impossibilities

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Can’t draw right?

I can’t seem to draw Ellie right. I  keep trying and erasing. I guess tonight’s not a good day to draw.   I can’t seem to concentrate. My drawing feels to forced. I keep erasing  and erasing and ERASING…stuck in the same place. Do I draw my characters as I have? For some reason I’m  drawn to this historical vintage feel. I sketched clothes and animals BUT my drawing skills– wish I could just draw.

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It was so much easier to paint trees. Wait …maybe I should take what I’ve learned from my Wise Trees book? Yeah I painted trees with Q-tips and melted crayon. It was awesome!

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Note to self. Stick to the book deadline. Publish Wise Trees.  Publish Wise Trees. You’ve talked about it.Now walk your talk. Keep writing and creating. Keep making art. It’s all you can  do. Create your art.

–there are no impossibilities

 

 

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Fingerprint Tree

I love this tree. Is there someway I can include this in my book? Yeah probably not. Literally, I placed myself in my art. Well, just my fingerprints but it was so much fun!

 

The paint was old and by old I mean the water separated from paint…if that’s possible. Ugh what a mess! But I was determined to paint something awesome.

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My curiosity was invited to play so what else could I do but, PLAY.

I mixed my color with very little water, dipped my finger in color and panted. I painted until my tree looked right…paint with my eyes not my hands is a genius idea. Thanks Michelangelo.

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Oh I had no clue what to do. Yet this beautiful tree happened.

My trunk is lookin’ good. Which brings me to fall. Fall is the time to shed all negativity, doubt,fear,worry and get ready for the beauty to come. The beautiy is all the awesome ideas to come.

 

This fall tree is in my wise trees book.

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I’m ready to launch my first book, making sure all the details are taken care of.

I’ve started working on an elf book, she’s Ellie now. Her friends Gus, Ralphie and Nikki help her realize that togetherness and love build the biggest and bestest tree in the world…as Ellie would say.

-There are no impossibilities

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You gotta make that story!

You gotta make that story!–the email that I literally just read. Well, not exactly but the subject line singled me out. I’ve been thinking about this dream of making money doing what I love. I love art. I love art so much, I realize teaching 1st grade at an art program school isn’t the option for me. I love kids. I love learning but that’s not my story.

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SO I sat thinking about the first days of my guest teaching. What’s changed since then? I check in, give my all and CHECK OUT. I check out, go home and paint.

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What exactly have I done since them? Have I been running in the same place? I have but wait…I’ve painted hundreds of times. I’ve learned to trust my ideas…

The eraser tool has become such a friend! I draw and draw. 

If I make a mistake who cares. I ‘ll make it work.What a relief.

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I’ve learned that one idea leads to who knows where.

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I’ve got this new talk of the town collection I’m working on. I keep jotting down ideas for books and  yeah… the BEST PART OF ME IS I’M A CREATIVE WRITER. I’M A PAINTER. I love love love writing books. I had no idea how to publish a book and Wise Trees is done!

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I will do the paper work to make it official and once in for all publish it. I’ve been doing a lot of writing since then and THE TIME IS NOW. NO someday I’ll wish upon a star, as Judy Garland sang. The time is now. No holding back. Back then, I lingered in someday and today I’m shouting THE TIME IS NOW. I have grown so much and I’m  excited for the future because…

-There are no impossibilities.

 

 

 

 

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When they love your art

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Today I had an unexpected opportunity to share my art with an audience, the children who will one day read it. My trees got wow’s The kids were excited and that’s what I wanted. As I think of it now, gosh it made me feel good. What a birthday gift.  For a while this has been my project. I painted these trees becasue I needed too. I understand how creative it is to create for yourself first before you can create for others.

 

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=There are no impossibilites