I do love Paul McCartney’s new song. The biggest lesson I learned this year is who cares.
I love my letters. I love my drawings. I enjoy my art. Sure I need to go back to hand lettering. I love color. I should keep mixing. Isn’t that the point. I could be in this place of curiosity and explore!
Or I could doubt. Why would I ever do that. I have lots more projects to paint.
I had a busy week. Got up at 5:30-6:00 am every single day with a plan. I painted, edited, scanned and set up the layout for Ellie. I never realized how much work goes into scanning all the artwork and preparing the files.
I went back and forth publishing and updating Wise Trees. I shared the book with art friends and it felt good to have them excited with me.
And then the stupid book cover didn’t upload. It just wouldn’t load. Something went wrong with the file. There it is, I had it all done, worked out, finished and the cover wouldn’t upload.
Oh but I finally got it right. I finished Wise Trees! I have been working on these books for months, two summers and …..I am reminded of some words from The Nose Knows podcast.
You get to a point where things get crazy, and you just got to get things done. You have a deadline to meet. Your adrenaline is full speed. You have to trust your instincts because there’s no time for fear or doubt.
Two days later I’m done DONE with Ellie. And done with Ana and George. That’s it DONE.
I’m using my old sketches for the artwork. These sketches are pretty good.
Scan these sketches in as images? Redraw some of the messy ones. A full color page and title page? Maybe I should outline each art piece with full color . I do like the sketches in The Giving Tree. But I want to add a little color. I have to meet this deadline. I’ll have to think about that, but yeah, I think this will work.
GO FOR IT. I know, I’ve always known when an idea is the right one. The problem is that resistance shows up and it has for a long time…too long. There came a point when I just couldn’t listen anymore. There comes a time in everyone’s life when you can’t accept another come back tomorrow.
Yeah that line was from a frantic mother looking for her stolen child. She has a big idea on where she is and who took her. Yet the world thinks she’s crazy. Does she do what I’ve been dong for far too long. I laugh, because she didn’t. SHE WAS RIGHT.
Sure, this was a lifetime movie but it’s a true story, about a real family, a real mother who rose above the naysayers.
So I went from I refuse to throw out another piece of paper to publishing my first ebook. I am almost done with the second book. I caught myself analyzing detail after detail, There’s going to be no more of that.
I mean yeah I want to produce the best I can but I can’t go over and OVER the details too long that I forget what I am doing or why. I feel like I keep writing the same ideas and words. Maybe I am ? Maybe I need to keep telling myself this and writing…WHICH IS PROOF I CAN’T TAKE IT ANYMORE. I must change. I am
I want to share my ideas about love and curiosity. I believe my books will do just that. People will be quick to say your book doesn’t matter. A big publishing company didn’t publish it. I say I achieved my goal. It feels great and I have so many more projects to work on. That makes me feel free!
Ellie shows us that togetherness is the best magic. She teaches us what it means to be an artist. Wise Trees teaches the importance of listening to ideas as they ring.
I’ve got tons of them and yet I am painting this poster.
…which has me thinking about all the books I want to publish. Seems like there’s not enough time to get them all done. Maybe I should start with ebooks? Yes, that seems like a good idea. But I have dreams of holding my book in hand. I loved paining all of those trees. What about giving the ebook away for free? I want readers to imagine and be curious with every turn of the page.
I’ve been thinking about all of the lessons I’ve learned. I’ve learned that I’m not an illustrator. I doodle. I paint. I CREATE. Ok yes I illustrate but I realize my talent is along the lines of, The day the crayons quit or Eric Carle’s collage art. I could do that. Well. not like Carle BUT like ME.
I long to create this type of work everyday of my life. That’s why I painted this poster for #HOMwork. Painting this made me think of all the books I’ve either written or started painting.
I feel like I just have to share my work. I have days where I paint thoughts that pop in my head.
I have days where I work on books. Winning the scholarship could help me write my books the way I see them in my head.
This is the tree I feel good about for the cover of the book. I’ve been hesitant to put my name on the book cover. I want this to feel more like a journal book so adding my name to the inside cover page makes more sense.
Then there’s this tree. I had been removing the background with the eraser tool and by accident I started writing letters. What a fabulous mistake! The letters are a little wobbly but this feels more personal like a journal book. I’ll keep practicing.
Maybe I could take some of the other trees and create limited edition posters with this technique. Ideas always happen when you let them.
Limited edition posters sounds amazing. I should paint another tree just to be sure and then choose the right tree for the book cover. I love the trunk of this tree but the first one really does a better job of expressing the message of the book…we must allow trees to grow…and by WE I mean we must allow each other to grow and be who we are meant to be.
Yesterday I painted the final tree for the book… I think. I spent half my morning…all of it really working on this crazy idea to paint with crayons as I have done before except improve on the color scheme. The crazy part is I filmed the entire process so I could create a new class to promote the book. The videos aren’t bad and yet they were. I worried that I had wasted my time but let’s be real I got to be creative and painted some awesome trees. Yes that was awesome and I will make notes of this in my journal.
What’s the point of life if your not playing with a crazy idea?
(I should paint this)
For now I have challenged myself to writing in my journal daily starting June. 21 which is the first day of summer. I’ll be journaling all the ideas and tips I have learned in the process of creating my book. Part of my creative process is to voice my curiosity and if I can help others do the same then that would be incredible…so I’ll be posting here and there and adding my art to my shops. This is my summer to curate and share and I going to do just that!
-Imagine all the impossibilities that are possible