Who Am I?

I keep fighting voices in my head that tell me I’m not enough. …Every single lie tells me I will never measure up…I love this song.

This happens often and too much really. I guess it comes with the creative process. It comes with play.

It’s with my sketches. My books. With the children. With my family. With my spirit.

Who am I? If I had one chance to show the world my stance, what do I say? I have lots of chances and I believe in all of my ideas!

new art

Sometimes fear shows up. It could be a doubt, mistake or a lazy moment that makes you think if only I had more time.

Show up fear that’s ok. I got this! I realize that I have nature’s favor. I walk with the breeze in my hair. I walk with the sun against my cheek.

This week I want to enjoy every moment. Focus on my art. Buy ten ISBN’s and publish Wise Trees in paperback. It’s ready. I’m ready.

My days, creative process in all, is a roller coaster ride. There’s fear. There’s thrills. There’s fun. There’s fear. You leap in and out of your seat having the time of your life.

I think I found inspiration for today’s painting and perhaps the overall feel of my website.

flower stickers coming soon…

I gotta be me…

Doing What?

So last night I read some tips on how to get “stuff” done effectively. One could be busy-busy but the deep question is DOING WHAT?

That’s exactly how I felt today, and probably why I’ve been doing some fun art …

in between the illustration painting for the book.

DOING WHAT?

I paint my curiosity and love. In doing so I want to invite children of all ages to be curioous with me. I want them to reach into that big beautiful world of ours and make dreams happen.

A week ago, a fan read my Wise Trees book and found it inspiring. She said the book with all its thoughts and illustrations remind her to embrace curiosity. CHECK

DOING WHAT?

Writing this book about loving yourself and following curiosity. My goal is to JUST LET MY ART SHINE. Sometimes I did feel like…deep breath…like after all this time I should paint better. Why can’t my skies look like XYZ’S. You know I’ll never forget the admirers of my work. It’s positive feedback. It happened today. I was like really, because I could see a bunch of things I could fix. Get out of here lizard brain!

NEWS FLASH!

So other people aren’t judging my art with the mind of an artist? They don’t see all the mistakes you see.  What a relief! 

I’m learning the lesson in each of my creations. CHECK

DOING WHAT?

The thing is am I messing up because of skill, okay sometime I do. BUT most of the time I mess up because I’m comparing my work to this outside source. When really, all I should be doing is looking within and learning along the way.

I realize that this is meant to be. I have to figure out how to make it work and rise above. Look at the lessonS I’ve learned. What went wrong and how can I make it better?

DOING WHAT?

What I paint is only as good as my words and color. How do words and color tell a story? It has to be story of love and curiosity. Does it all have to look good? No and what a laugh. I don’t believe in ugly art.

Every art piece is an opprtunity to explore who I am.

I have to be curious with my color choice and techniques. I could learn 100 techniqies but i’ts more important to bring forth what I have in my heart. Oh and share that with the world! I’ll do it anad each day there’ll be more fans added to the tribe because… there are no imposibles.


A Love Note to Myself

Ok so I ‘ve been inspired by an activity that includes sending a Valentine to yourself. I also wrote a similar poster for a classroom.

Your painting is improving .

It is amazing what happens when you let go of comparing and doubts and trust yorself. You are kind and always try to help people. Your book ideas are awesome. Keep writing. Pay no attention to negativity. Listen to the tree’s breeze and all its realities.

It’s been raining cats and dogs. Remember there may be a drought but the rain is coming. I mean literally it has come! I should paint this?

It’s Valentine’s Day!

There I was, creating all the elements for a Valentine craft table. I’ve been designing lots of classroom character posters with construction paper. Yes pun intended. I realized this is great practice for breaking down drawings into simple shapes. What and idea!

Then I thought about my famous live your story poem, soon to be book. Why not change the color to pink for Valentine’s Day!

Every day is a day to love yo self and when you love yo self…..there are no impossibilites.

pink heart lightbulb

Today I mixed up the right pink. I mixed in a little gray to get a warm pink. I want the book to have a warm inviting vibe. I am so glad I am reusing this old crayola palette to create a color palette of my own.

I thought I could mix up two complementary colors and get the right black gray tone.

Then I painted the idea of how with one spoonful of sugar the sour fades and all you savor is wonderful flavor.

Yeah sums up this wonderful experience I’ve been having lately. Look at this color. You start out with the black and mix in a little pink. Look at all the beautiful tones I made. These tones would not have been possible without black tones. After I painted three hearts I realized I could have made the process more gradual but sometimes you have to go with good enough.

I make lots of art that was…that’s the thing I can’t even say ugly art because it was art that led to this project. All that art had to happen to overcome the 10,000 tries. That’s always a beautiful thing.

Then I was looking at my heart

and realized this sketch makes so much more sense.

The whole idea for the heart is the idea of something so beautiful that you wonder how it ever came to be. Yeah we all have that beauty within us.

try new things

Idea 1 : Paint some cool clouds with this cotton pom-pom. Not bad.

Idea 2: Use a little India ink to paint a heart. That was fun.

Maybe I should rethink the color here?

…but the more I look at it, the more I like it
…which one has the right vibe.

Who you are is a wonder to behold. Which one has that vibe. I’m going to say the 1st is easier on the eye and sporadically feels right…

Idea 3: Paint a heart character ( idea 2and 3 are for the book)

Idea 4 : This idea came from a book. The passage is something like this,” Most fish talk. You just have to be willing to listen. One, of course must want to hear.

india ink is beautiful but the fish and lettering need help…

“What an awesome way to say believe in the impossible. The impossible can happen but one must be willing to think it so.

Idea : 5 It’s been raining a whole lot and yesterday the sun came out. To bask in the glory of nature one must experience pouring rain. Oh it’s so true because the skies are ever so blue, crisp and clean. The first glimpse of sun always warms me on a cold day after a storm. It did today. Then …we’ll there goes the awesome clouds I made this morning.

Oh well ,you win some and you lose some. It’s the game of trying new things. I have two projects down for the book. I still have to think about the lettering layout. I can’t obsess because I got this. I will paint the words, practice watercolor. I want this book out there. People are going to love it. They already love the poem…no hay imposibles.

let the painting begin…

Thinking map is done.

Many of the sketches are done.

 

Color scheme is almost figured out. I’ve got two weeks to make the deadline. Will I make it? Should I make it?

I don’t know, I’m taking my time.

Letting all those ideas and words work out fine.

This live your story poem is good.

Breeze, you tell me I got the skills, the talent…yeah its understood.

I am a writer

With you lizard brain I am a fighter.

 

Ha this whole Muhammad Ali rhyming thing is so cool! People are lovin’ my live your love story poem. Some are already waiting for the book to come out. Good things are happening….there’s no impossibilities.

sketches of the past

 

Build a tribe of 14,000. What was I thinking? Now I realize the most important part of building a tribe is to create. Not just create but really have something to say. To speak with the heart and soul.

This year I vow to create EVERY SINGLE day. I’ll paint and write every step of the way.

First project of the year is the love book….

-there are no impossibilities