Paint with a paper roll?

I’d like to start the week with a reminder that it’s all about the process. Who knew I could use this to make hearts?

This week I’ll be…what will I do?

  • review Live Your Story
  • Edit if needed
  • Learn the basics of instagram photos and try a few
  • Book dummy for Road Trip
  • draw more lettering and animals
  • Loose sketching for around the world project
  • add work to my Pinterest
  • Read

Ok it’s going to be busy.

First book layout is done!

It’s been crazy, my eyes are tired but I think I’m done with the lettering.

I finished the layout earlier and somehow it didn’t save. I kept making all these mistakes. I needed to change the book size because the images didn’t look right. Back and forth and back and forth and now I’m done. Now it’s time to relax and refresh my eyes for the next phase of editing.

Good night universe.

Create because you want to

I’ve been sketching a lot of letters.

It’s always the ones that just happen that keep me excited.

I totally get the whole you gotta love the process. Should I be signing my work?

I have this habit of creating and sharing…everything. So there I go on society 6 going over all of my designs.

I parted ways with the ones that didn’t excite me, be it color or idea. Now to figure out the theme. To ponder over why. As an artist you change. Not because of season but because your voice and wisdom grow. Skills change. Yes so glad I painted with leaves today.

I wonder what tomorrow brings.

Life Tree With Blue Tones?

Does this tree with all it’s blue tones work? Does it convey that others will try but you live your life thought?

The emotions here are sadness. compassion,comfort, trust, faith, love, melancholy and…

I love the words live your life placed right under the tree metaphorically taking the place of roots.

We’ll see because it’s gonna be a good week.

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This is the last and final tree for the book. It’s a weird tree but it’s beautiful. My ending thoughts for the book are that we should allow trees to grow however they choose.

We should protect our trees, give them water and allow them to grow.

Should we not do the same with each other. Yes I think so!

This book is both a love for people and nature. This notion is the premise for a new book.

When you get a BIG IDEA…

GO FOR IT.  I know, I’ve always known when an idea is the right one. The problem is that resistance shows up and it has for a long time…too long. There came a point when I just couldn’t listen anymore. There comes a time in everyone’s life when you can’t accept another come back tomorrow.

Yeah that line was from a frantic mother looking for her stolen child. She has a big idea on where she is and who took her. Yet the world thinks she’s crazy. Does she do what I’ve been dong for far too long. I laugh, because she didn’t. SHE WAS RIGHT. 

Sure, this was a lifetime movie but it’s a true story, about a real family, a real mother who rose above the naysayers. 

So I went from I refuse to throw out another piece of paper to publishing my first ebook. I am  almost done with the second book. I caught myself analyzing detail after detail, There’s going to be no more of that. 

I mean yeah I want to produce the best I can but I can’t go over and OVER the details too long that I forget what I am doing or why. I feel like I keep writing the same ideas and words. Maybe I am ? Maybe I need to keep telling myself this and writing…WHICH IS PROOF I CAN’T TAKE IT ANYMORE.  I must change. I am 

I want to share my ideas about love and curiosity.  I believe my books will do just that. People will be quick to say your book doesn’t matter.  A big publishing company didn’t publish it.  I  say I achieved my goal. It feels great and I have so many more projects to work on. That makes me feel free!

Ellie shows us that togetherness is the best magic. She teaches us what it means to be an artist. Wise Trees teaches the importance of listening to ideas as they ring. 

-There are no  impossibilities

Don’t let resistance win

Oh my goodness resistance almost won today but I am still here. I uploaded the files for my book. I was already to do it. Today is the day.  That’s it, no more holding on to this project. The deadline is TO-DAY. I was nauseous, nervous  and scared. That’s when I new I had to do it.

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I had it all planned out. Copy and pasted my awesome book description. The listing was ready to go. I planned on giving the book away for free. It was my holiday gift to the world .I checked spelling and grammar, read the book out loud. Everything felt good. I got this, I told myself. Then I uploaded the file and previewed the e-book…

in that moment resistance showed up. The formatting was all wrong. I kept fixing it, hours went by and I just couldn’t get it right. I came close to desperately whining. OK I did. I have been working on this book for a year. Well, maybe 8 months. I went back and forth with the editing, the images, layout, font and every single detail. I still need to fix it but I needed a break.

It’s weird because I feel like this feels like a PROJECT. I mean launching something is hard. There’s sweat and tears. I certainly felt that today. If things had gone smooth, I would have just stayed in my comfort zone. I need exactly the opposite to succeed. Right? How many times have I published a book. Never. How many books do I need to publish to now what I’m doing? Who knows but I’ll keep working.

 

-There are no impossibilities

 

Do it wrong

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I’m so glad I know who Seth Godin is. I want to be a Linchpin. I am a linchpin. A few days ago I was having this conversation, a conversation that I come back to a lot. A father can’t play legos with his son because the father has to build the right way? I did the very same thing creating with the notion of doing it the right way? What’s worse I taught others to do the same. 

I’ve seen teachers insist that students paint a tree with green and brown. That is the “right way to paint a tree” isn’t it? What does the right way mean anyway? I feel terrible about this. Truth be told I didn’t know why I did this. It’s not like I am this controlling person. I’m not. You see at a a young age we are taught to “do it right”. We are taught to color within the lines. That Jesus is white not black. That pink is for boys and blue is for girls.

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The other day I walked in a classroom and I saw all of these cool projects hanging on the wall. They were awesome and the teacher is amazing BUT THEY WERE ALL THE SAME. Oh but the kids who made calaveras, well these were awesome. I couldn’t believe my eyes and my heart when I saw what they made with the mere scraps I gave them. I say scraps because they were scraps from other projects. Sure I gave them my sample and showed them pictures but wow WOW magic happened before my eyes.

The students had and felt complete control. Each was wrong. I was curious and interested as to how and why they chose color and design. I say room 8 taught me a VERY IMPORTANT ART LESSON THAT DAY, a lesson that I think on as I read Linchpin, a lesson that I will probably never forget.

 

I will repaint this today. Should have kept with the first one I made.

 

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Sadly I repainted it several times because I had to do it right. not sure I’ll be able to capture the same magic. The others might look right but there boring. I’ll never make that mistake…

-there are no  impossibilities

 

I am an illustrator

I’m not an illustrator. I am not a hand letterer. Wait a minute, did I just write that? Yeah I did and its forever on the last page of my journal entry. Something feels wrong about this. I feel limited.

 

So then  I go and listen to an awesome The Nose Knows Podcast. Jon Contino answers the question, when can you call yourself an illustrator. “It’s all in your head he says. You don’t need for someone to tell you, a degree or instagram likes…”

Not exactly his words but yeah that’s what he said. He’s right.

I don’t need a contest on instagram to tell me. For some reason I did look to this contest as a way to prove myself in a sense. I don’t need to do that. It was awesome to be part of this project. It was awesome to share my project.  I am happy for all the winners! I’m happy that I was able to put this poster together. I am growing and working on amazing projects. Yes every now and then it is awesome to have a MOMA artist like my work. I’ll take that.

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THERE YOU GO. I am an illustrator. Sure my are isn’t like the cool illustrations in a Curious George book. Nor do they have to be. That’s the point.  I am  an illustrator and a hand letterer. There are different styles and mine IS MY STYLE. I mean its my voice. Lots of people draw letters, with quotes, about life BUT ITS HOW YOU SAY IT. Shouldn’t I be telling  my story? Yes.

All this goes back to the movie A STAR IS BORN and the phrase I learned from a character who when the world shouts impossible she says

 

…there are no impossibilities.  She says it a smile.