I had a busy week. Got up at 5:30-6:00 am every single day with a plan. I painted, edited, scanned and set up the layout for Ellie. I never realized how much work goes into scanning all the artwork and preparing the files.
I went back and forth publishing and updating Wise Trees. I shared the book with art friends and it felt good to have them excited with me.
And then the stupid book cover didn’t upload. It just wouldn’t load. Something went wrong with the file. There it is, I had it all done, worked out, finished and the cover wouldn’t upload.
Oh but I finally got it right. I finished Wise Trees! I have been working on these books for months, two summers and …..I am reminded of some words from The Nose Knows podcast.
You get to a point where things get crazy, and you just got to get things done. You have a deadline to meet. Your adrenaline is full speed. You have to trust your instincts because there’s no time for fear or doubt.
Two days later I’m done DONE with Ellie. And done with Ana and George. That’s it DONE.
I’m using my old sketches for the artwork. These sketches are pretty good.
Scan these sketches in as images? Redraw some of the messy ones. A full color page and title page? Maybe I should outline each art piece with full color . I do like the sketches in The Giving Tree. But I want to add a little color. I have to meet this deadline. I’ll have to think about that, but yeah, I think this will work.
GO FOR IT. I know, I’ve always known when an idea is the right one. The problem is that resistance shows up and it has for a long time…too long. There came a point when I just couldn’t listen anymore. There comes a time in everyone’s life when you can’t accept another come back tomorrow.
Yeah that line was from a frantic mother looking for her stolen child. She has a big idea on where she is and who took her. Yet the world thinks she’s crazy. Does she do what I’ve been dong for far too long. I laugh, because she didn’t. SHE WAS RIGHT.
Sure, this was a lifetime movie but it’s a true story, about a real family, a real mother who rose above the naysayers.
So I went from I refuse to throw out another piece of paper to publishing my first ebook. I am almost done with the second book. I caught myself analyzing detail after detail, There’s going to be no more of that.
I mean yeah I want to produce the best I can but I can’t go over and OVER the details too long that I forget what I am doing or why. I feel like I keep writing the same ideas and words. Maybe I am ? Maybe I need to keep telling myself this and writing…WHICH IS PROOF I CAN’T TAKE IT ANYMORE. I must change. I am
I want to share my ideas about love and curiosity. I believe my books will do just that. People will be quick to say your book doesn’t matter. A big publishing company didn’t publish it. I say I achieved my goal. It feels great and I have so many more projects to work on. That makes me feel free!
Ellie shows us that togetherness is the best magic. She teaches us what it means to be an artist. Wise Trees teaches the importance of listening to ideas as they ring.