Practice to find style

I came to an important realization. I’m not an illustrator. I’m not a hand letterer. I do love to paint letters like these

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and doodle letters like this.

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I live for drawing moments like these. I had no idea what I’d paint, draw or doodle until I did. I totally get why its important to get 10,000 tries down.

I love making books. I express them with obsession of color and nature. I keep thinking about my book and how I illustrated it. I just painted trees. It was easy. OK, I had to repaint and repaint and repaint trees but that was part of the process.

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Wait, how do I display my name on my books? Silly details. Why am I thinking about all this? That’s all I’ve been thinking about this week. I did some research on blogging and branding. Words like honesty, emotions and connections clearly stand out. So I took a picture. I felt weird trying to take a selfie. It’s just not something I do but I can post about art forever. I’ve found my lace.

-there are no impossibilities

Passion Projects

I’ve got tons of them and yet I am painting this poster.

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…which has me thinking about all the books I want to publish. Seems like there’s not enough time to get them all done. Maybe I should start with ebooks? Yes, that seems like a good idea. But I have dreams of holding my book in hand. I loved paining all of those trees. What about giving the ebook away for free? I want readers to imagine and be curious with every turn of the page.

I’ve been thinking about all of the lessons I’ve learned. I’ve learned that I’m not an illustrator. I doodle. I paint. I CREATE. Ok yes I illustrate but I realize my talent is along the lines of, The day the crayons quit or Eric Carle’s collage art. I could do that. Well. not like Carle BUT like ME.

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I long to create  this type of work  everyday of my life. That’s why I painted this poster for #HOMwork. Painting this made me think of all the books I’ve either written or started painting.

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I feel like I just have to share my work. I have days where I paint thoughts that pop in my head.

I have days where I work on books. Winning the scholarship could help me write my books the way I see them in my head.

-there are no impossibilities

Can’t draw right?

I can’t seem to draw Ellie right. I  keep trying and erasing. I guess tonight’s not a good day to draw.   I can’t seem to concentrate. My drawing feels to forced. I keep erasing  and erasing and ERASING…stuck in the same place. Do I draw my characters as I have? For some reason I’m  drawn to this historical vintage feel. I sketched clothes and animals BUT my drawing skills– wish I could just draw.

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It was so much easier to paint trees. Wait …maybe I should take what I’ve learned from my Wise Trees book? Yeah I painted trees with Q-tips and melted crayon. It was awesome!

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Note to self. Stick to the book deadline. Publish Wise Trees.  Publish Wise Trees. You’ve talked about it.Now walk your talk. Keep writing and creating. Keep making art. It’s all you can  do. Create your art.

–there are no impossibilities

 

 

6 Posts I need the most…

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Yeah, tbese days I’m close VERY CLOSE TO hitting that button and finalizing my VERY FIRST BOOK.  I’m working on lots of projects and most of them are out there. The world says only show the good stuff. I share mostly everything. The world says paint trends. I paint what I want.  Today I read about a janitor,  a single mom. She wrote a book and it won a prestigious award at a prestigious university, the university  where she worked as a janitor.

I never would have found this article had it not been for Austin Kleon and his KEEP WORKING KEEP PLAYING… newsletter. It just so happens that today  I need to reflect.

 

You gotta make that story!

 

A star is born…

 

BIG MAGIC

believe in your ideas

 

painting a purple tree…

practice helps

 

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Fingerprint Tree

I love this tree. Is there someway I can include this in my book? Yeah probably not. Literally, I placed myself in my art. Well, just my fingerprints but it was so much fun!

 

The paint was old and by old I mean the water separated from paint…if that’s possible. Ugh what a mess! But I was determined to paint something awesome.

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My curiosity was invited to play so what else could I do but, PLAY.

I mixed my color with very little water, dipped my finger in color and panted. I painted until my tree looked right…paint with my eyes not my hands is a genius idea. Thanks Michelangelo.

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Oh I had no clue what to do. Yet this beautiful tree happened.

My trunk is lookin’ good. Which brings me to fall. Fall is the time to shed all negativity, doubt,fear,worry and get ready for the beauty to come. The beautiy is all the awesome ideas to come.

 

This fall tree is in my wise trees book.

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I’m ready to launch my first book, making sure all the details are taken care of.

I’ve started working on an elf book, she’s Ellie now. Her friends Gus, Ralphie and Nikki help her realize that togetherness and love build the biggest and bestest tree in the world…as Ellie would say.

-There are no impossibilities

When they love your art

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Today I had an unexpected opportunity to share my art with an audience, the children who will one day read it. My trees got wow’s The kids were excited and that’s what I wanted. As I think of it now, gosh it made me feel good. What a birthday gift.  For a while this has been my project. I painted these trees becasue I needed too. I understand how creative it is to create for yourself first before you can create for others.

 

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=There are no impossibilites

On writing a book

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Seriously writing a book is hard. I love the painting. The stories practically write themeselves. BUT it’s the editing mind games that twist you up. Do I keep this? Who are these characters? What’s the message? Will I make the kids smile? Bartholomew makes me smile?

At some point I began writing because this story was filled with lessons I need to read, lessons I need to live.

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What a lesson to learn from. Some dogs want to fly. Some foxes want to sing. Some bears want to paint. Some rabbits rather grow strawberries. Why not. For when you explore and listen to the voice that tells you the truth, you discover there’s a world of wow-a world of no impossibilities.

 

I have two books written. What I love most about these book projects is that I am learning to let lose and just create. I am learning to listen to curiosity. 

 

BIG MAGIC

I have a fast deadline ahead of me. There’s the Wise Trees book deadline and other projects. And yet I take time to paint ideas that have nothing to do with the project.  I have a book cover to finalize and the final draft–I keep saying this. It’s nerve wracking so I  have to paint.

Some projects are old…

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but I had this inclination to repaint

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What a relaxing breathe of fresh air. This is my first book. I’m nervous. I have read the book,many times. I love it. BUT I must edit with a fresh pair of eyes. Why not take a breather and build my confidence with fun art?

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OK so I guess my book can’t escape me entirely. I used a tree watercolor wash as a background for this quote. The idea for this quote is–WAIT A MINUTE should I do something like this for the book cover?

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The WISE TREES BOOK helped me realize that I am a writer and a painter who needs to write all these stores in my head. It’s not fair to have them exist only in my imagination and not give them a chance. I will bring them all to life. Wherever I go whatever I do, the ideas are simply there-nagging me really.

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Only now there’s many short stories but…

There are no impossibilities

Aha moment

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Just now I had a aha momet. I’ve never seen a hand written dictionary before. The writer must be obsessed with words. WAIT!  I used to do the same with my dictionary.  Not excatly, but I too love words. I’d read lots of books. And every time I came across a  beautiful word I’d highlight it in my dictionary. What happend to my dictionary? I gave it away. Why?

I have always loved words. I wanted to preserve beautiful words like unmistakable or frolic.  Hand lettering. Quotes. Books. Music. Wise Trees.  I could go on but it all makes sense. I will write all of my book ideas, ALL OF THEM…

There are no impossibilities

Crazy day

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for a crazy week. Sometimes I feel like I’m running around with to dos AND THAT’S WHAT HAPPENED TODAY. Then I sat down to repaint Ana and George’s hot air balloon.

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I sketched this new design. Just a pencil. No eraser. It turned out beautiful. And the quote is exactly on point. That’s probably what gave me the idea to draw this today. An Alice in Wonderland color scheme? Yeah this is going to be great!

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SO I set up my supplies and began painting. I mixed up the paint. Things were feeling  good. The more I painted the more I made mistakes. I tried to make it work. IT DIDN’T. I just kept imagining this balloon on the cover of my picture book–the adventures of Ana and George. I just wanted to crumble up the paper and call it a day. Any little thing was about to set me off. And then I said,” Look you drew the awesome sketch so just paint. Just paint.  And I did, but my painting session had come and gone for the day.

And still I wonder, was that session a total waste? Of course not! I still have to edit wise trees and add the remaining trees. Now I have all these books to write.

-There are no impossibilities