These textures of past projects are looking good. It felt good to hold the paper in my hand and sporadically feel a horse or a turtle emerge. I believe I needed to feel curiosity in this moment.
I have to admit, collage work is a lot harder than I thought. I suppose there is a big reason why Eric Carl painted his textures on tissue paper. Tissue is probably a lot easier to cut than 140 Ib. watercolor paper. I just painted all of these lovely colors and they make the perfect animals. I want to demonstrate that our world and everything is beautlfully, colorfully connected.
I can’t believe my week off has come and gone. I do feel a sense of renewal, motivation for lots more projects. I cut up squares of various textures so I could transform them into letters. Wow I love when this happens…
Oh my goodness resistance almost won today but I am still here. I uploaded the files for my book. I was already to do it. Today is the day. That’s it, no more holding on to this project. The deadline is TO-DAY. I was nauseous, nervous and scared. That’s when I new I had to do it.
I had it all planned out. Copy and pasted my awesome book description. The listing was ready to go. I planned on giving the book away for free. It was my holiday gift to the world .I checked spelling and grammar, read the book out loud. Everything felt good. I got this, I told myself. Then I uploaded the file and previewed the e-book…
in that moment resistance showed up. The formatting was all wrong. I kept fixing it, hours went by and I just couldn’t get it right. I came close to desperately whining. OK I did. I have been working on this book for a year. Well, maybe 8 months. I went back and forth with the editing, the images, layout, font and every single detail. I still need to fix it but I needed a break.
It’s weird because I feel like this feels like a PROJECT. I mean launching something is hard. There’s sweat and tears. I certainly felt that today. If things had gone smooth, I would have just stayed in my comfort zone. I need exactly the opposite to succeed. Right? How many times have I published a book. Never. How many books do I need to publish to now what I’m doing? Who knows but I’ll keep working.
Talk about repainting and repainting trees. Last night I felt this tree needed more contrast.
I keep going over the story and paintings. This is my first book and I want to get it right.
I spent hours editing my Ana and George book. I realize that I I’ve been working on it way too long. I’m at the point where I, well it feels like an awesome song you keep singing and playing and then you lay it to rest.
I have other books I want to write. I started the nitty-gritty details like book size and how to include my author name.
I have decided to use my full name. Wait will I? Sometimes this indecisiveness irks me.
I’m almost done with the pictures for my second book…so many thoughts…I think I like the original one better.
seems like so long ago that I had this crazy idea to write a book. I painted trees and wrote. Now I have a collage animal book idea inspired by the man himself Eric Carle, the love poem that will be converted to a book, a flower book…I’ll be creatiing a book dummy for the next book. Oh gosh my heart is pounding.
First I must tie up loose ends with Wise Trees.
I have been repainting AGAIN, making sure all is the best it can be.
This is pretty good. BUT there”s not enough contrast in the spirals.
Maybe the tree needs texture?
Texture is all wrong? I went back and forth. I kept editing and editing… back and forth and looking at the words for the book.
This tree needs a squirrel. Yes, hearts and all lookin good.
There’s always an artist who has everything figured out. They are living the dream and maybe even film a live sketching or painting session. The art is amazing and the artists proceeds to say, this is a mess and it isn’t perfect so I’ll clean it up in photoshop. Ha! Perfection is false. It’s all about the process.
Edit my next book to help me learn the editing process for my current book project? Yeah makes sense. Just now I read Wise Trees, after having not read it for a long time and
Let’s have a world full
of beautiful trees.
That’s the way it’s meant to be.
Wouldn’t you agree?
For our trees we must care.
Give them water, HUG them and most importantly
allow them to grow.
The final words, the idea and all the trees I painted– I’m in LOVE. What’s more, this project has me writing idea after idea. Some ideas have been lingering, begging me, to be written. These stories have stayed with me. You know what, I will do it. I love to write. Oh but painting is something I love too.
I love to paint and create. It’s the only time I fully feel free. No strings attached. No fear. Nothing but love. It’s true.
Recently I had a BIG MAGIC moment. I painted and oh my goodness WHAT I PAINTED. I’ll reflect on that in a few more days.
Oh my gosh did I really set up a fall launch date for WISE TREES! Yes…