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Art is a Process

This past weekend I went WAY back to my humble beginnings on Skillshare.

In some ways I feel as though I’ve not made progress. On the other hand I feel I have.

Time and time again I look at my work and notice:

    I didn’t master hand lettering. Not sure how I feel about that either.
    Why is number 1 so? I created a class which encouraged others to show up everyday and I didn’t.
    My path and plans have changed.
    I started out with hand lettering and I just got so much more to say…
    which brings me to number 5 here. I write books and I love to paint letters.

6. A lot of the new art for my new book is amazing.

The most important lesson is

When I show up everyday

I don’t care what you say.

Yeah I got a plan

I’ll paint what I can.

Even the ugly art is

dear to my heart.

Because it’s the beauty that makes brilliant.

When I share my thoughts there’s no I can’t.

What I see in my mind

On the canvas it sometimes doesn’t look fine.

Oh but the idea is wonderful.

Keep painting and creating, let go of the bull.

I did take a little break from the book this weekend

…and painted some fun confidence idea trusting painting and always makes me feel like there are no impossibilities

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Love + Holly Jolly

Sometimes I feel it and sometimes I don’t. These days I am reminded of the miracle and magic of giving.

These days I continue looking back to sketchbooks of the past. Looking back to the choices I’ve made or lack there of. What has to change so that I can live the life I choose? In a sense I already am. BUT who am I kidding. I want what I want.

Oh wow there’s been some ugly stuff. Real ugly. I love the ideas but the first two remind me that I’ve grown. Thank goodness for that.

A few days ago, I was painting hearts and that led to my love poem. I mean I thought I was done. Apparently not.

Working on a whole new layout, one that’s worthy of a wall.

…AND once I started the whole love poem edit for clarity and fluency, well that led to ideas of all things hearts for the book.

But last night I pondered over the changes and I got to say that little conversation hurt.
All this led to recording myself talking about my creative journey. My plan is to finish off the year reviewing my decisions, goals and bring that to a close so I can be READY FOR 2019

-no hay imposibles

So ready to work on new books and

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Thinking Map

I have an idea for my logo. I’m thinking peacock. They chase off preditors, are symbols of compassion and kindness. Oh it’s perfect. Maybe I can incorporate living coral into the blue color scheme I have planned. Yeah why not. I’m excited for all the projects to come. 


-there are no impossibilities

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If you want it, do it!

The words of the wise, ring clearly in my head. If you want it, then by golly DO IT!  

I’ve always wanted to be an artist. I talked and wrote about it like is was off in the distance. Art is right here in the rainbow song . Art is the voice that makes me laugh when I’m surrounded by children who by golly, tested my patience today. Art  banishes lizard brain the moment he shows up. Not today. 

I wrote three books and I’ve got lots more to write. 

Ella you taught me not to let fear and doubt steal my magic. We all have magic but that magic is only as good as we allow it to be. 

Wise Trees you taught me to listen to my curiosity. You taught me that my best happens when nature holds my hand. 

Ana & George  you have shown me that when the world shouts you can’t, that’s the moment you take center stage and sing your heart out. It’s about the journey, the people you meet and talk about unexpected surprises. 

As I sit and think of it all, wow the moment my body and all its movements lived the words of  great artists well… that’s when change happened…

If you want it, then by golly DO IT!

-there are no impossibilities

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How do you get better?

Some OG art…gosh I need to paint this. 

People always ask this question, expecting a magical answer. They expect a cookie cutter plan. The truth is simple. Show up. Show up in every sense of the word and PLAY.

Nothing more than writing three books has helped me understand this.  That’s it , nothing fancy or crazy. Just show up with an idea. Most people show up for a few days and then give up.

I have learned to recognize resistance, Lizard Brain. 

The way I see it is you can play. Immerse yourself in your idea and let that emotion pour out on the canvas.

Canvas can be a song, a book, or anything really. Yes, it’s how you say it. Yes, its how you feel. 

Or, and here’s the ugly truth,  you could  edit, overthink, analyze, doubt, fear, put-off, deny, forget, lie, erase…its all the same. 

My best work happens within the very first rounds. I create this idea in my mind, paint and there it is. Ok, maybe there’s a little what am I trying to convey here. 

Problem is for those firsts to be awesome, lots of showing up has to happen.   I get that now. 

-there are no impossibilities

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Ugly Light

I had this design in my sketch book for way too long.

So why did I hold onto it. Well I don’t like to paint or wear black. I do like the little black dress…

Today I looked at my design tucked in a brand new pad of watercolor paper. I placed it there as a work in progress.

I painted with a deep purple.

Doesn’t the idea of a purple hat add fun to what I’m trying to say? Yes. Nothing speaks more to me than the purple tone. When you let go of what they’ll say, magic happens.

I imagine a woman walking down the street. All eyes are on her. Some are jealous. Some are uttering how much they hate purple. “Who would wear a purple hat?” they’ll laugh. All the while she is walking, smiling and wearing her hat never even noticing.

When you let go and be you, you could be Audrey Hepburn. Yes.

-There are no impossibilities

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Note to Self

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Do it wrong

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I’m so glad I know who Seth Godin is. I want to be a Linchpin. I am a linchpin. A few days ago I was having this conversation, a conversation that I come back to a lot. A father can’t play legos with his son because the father has to build the right way? I did the very same thing creating with the notion of doing it the right way? What’s worse I taught others to do the same. 

I’ve seen teachers insist that students paint a tree with green and brown. That is the “right way to paint a tree” isn’t it? What does the right way mean anyway? I feel terrible about this. Truth be told I didn’t know why I did this. It’s not like I am this controlling person. I’m not. You see at a a young age we are taught to “do it right”. We are taught to color within the lines. That Jesus is white not black. That pink is for boys and blue is for girls.

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The other day I walked in a classroom and I saw all of these cool projects hanging on the wall. They were awesome and the teacher is amazing BUT THEY WERE ALL THE SAME. Oh but the kids who made calaveras, well these were awesome. I couldn’t believe my eyes and my heart when I saw what they made with the mere scraps I gave them. I say scraps because they were scraps from other projects. Sure I gave them my sample and showed them pictures but wow WOW magic happened before my eyes.

The students had and felt complete control. Each was wrong. I was curious and interested as to how and why they chose color and design. I say room 8 taught me a VERY IMPORTANT ART LESSON THAT DAY, a lesson that I think on as I read Linchpin, a lesson that I will probably never forget.

 

I will repaint this today. Should have kept with the first one I made.

 

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Sadly I repainted it several times because I had to do it right. not sure I’ll be able to capture the same magic. The others might look right but there boring. I’ll never make that mistake…

-there are no  impossibilities

 

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6 Posts I need the most…

tight now.

 

Yeah, tbese days I’m close VERY CLOSE TO hitting that button and finalizing my VERY FIRST BOOK.  I’m working on lots of projects and most of them are out there. The world says only show the good stuff. I share mostly everything. The world says paint trends. I paint what I want.  Today I read about a janitor,  a single mom. She wrote a book and it won a prestigious award at a prestigious university, the university  where she worked as a janitor.

I never would have found this article had it not been for Austin Kleon and his KEEP WORKING KEEP PLAYING… newsletter. It just so happens that today  I need to reflect.

 

You gotta make that story!

 

A star is born…

 

BIG MAGIC

believe in your ideas

 

painting a purple tree…

practice helps

 

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Fingerprint Tree

I love this tree. Is there someway I can include this in my book? Yeah probably not. Literally, I placed myself in my art. Well, just my fingerprints but it was so much fun!

 

The paint was old and by old I mean the water separated from paint…if that’s possible. Ugh what a mess! But I was determined to paint something awesome.

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My curiosity was invited to play so what else could I do but, PLAY.

I mixed my color with very little water, dipped my finger in color and panted. I painted until my tree looked right…paint with my eyes not my hands is a genius idea. Thanks Michelangelo.

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Oh I had no clue what to do. Yet this beautiful tree happened.

My trunk is lookin’ good. Which brings me to fall. Fall is the time to shed all negativity, doubt,fear,worry and get ready for the beauty to come. The beautiy is all the awesome ideas to come.

 

This fall tree is in my wise trees book.

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I’m ready to launch my first book, making sure all the details are taken care of.

I’ve started working on an elf book, she’s Ellie now. Her friends Gus, Ralphie and Nikki help her realize that togetherness and love build the biggest and bestest tree in the world…as Ellie would say.

-There are no impossibilities