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Made a Mess

The more I look at it the uglier it gets

Sometimes ugly art happens but I will give it one more try. Yeah cover the whole thing up with some tempera paint  and add some flowers. 

Now that I think of it, I’m tired. I’ve been working on my three books for along time. It’s been intense. 

-there are no impossibilities 

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Ugly Light

I had this design in my sketch book for way too long.

So why did I hold onto it. Well I don’t like to paint or wear black. I do like the little black dress…

Today I looked at my design tucked in a brand new pad of watercolor paper. I placed it there as a work in progress.

I painted with a deep purple.

Doesn’t the idea of a purple hat add fun to what I’m trying to say? Yes. Nothing speaks more to me than the purple tone. When you let go of what they’ll say, magic happens.

I imagine a woman walking down the street. All eyes are on her. Some are jealous. Some are uttering how much they hate purple. “Who would wear a purple hat?” they’ll laugh. All the while she is walking, smiling and wearing her hat never even noticing.

When you let go and be you, you could be Audrey Hepburn. Yes.

-There are no impossibilities

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indecisiveness irks me

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Talk about repainting and repainting trees. Last night I felt this tree needed more contrast.

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I keep going over the story and paintings. This is my first book and I want to get it right.

I spent hours editing my Ana and George book. I realize that I I’ve been working on it way too long. I’m at the point where I, well it feels like an awesome song you keep singing and playing and then you lay it to rest.

I have other books I want to write.  I started the nitty-gritty details like book size and how to include my author name.

I have decided to use my full name. Wait will I? Sometimes this indecisiveness irks me.

I’m almost done with the pictures for my second book…so many thoughts…I think I like the original one better.

There are no impossibilities

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Practice to find style

I came to an important realization. I’m not an illustrator. I’m not a hand letterer. I do love to paint letters like these

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and doodle letters like this.

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I live for drawing moments like these. I had no idea what I’d paint, draw or doodle until I did. I totally get why its important to get 10,000 tries down.

I love making books. I express them with obsession of color and nature. I keep thinking about my book and how I illustrated it. I just painted trees. It was easy. OK, I had to repaint and repaint and repaint trees but that was part of the process.

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Wait, how do I display my name on my books? Silly details. Why am I thinking about all this? That’s all I’ve been thinking about this week. I did some research on blogging and branding. Words like honesty, emotions and connections clearly stand out. So I took a picture. I felt weird trying to take a selfie. It’s just not something I do but I can post about art forever. I’ve found my lace.

-there are no impossibilities

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Passion Projects

I’ve got tons of them and yet I am painting this poster.

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…which has me thinking about all the books I want to publish. Seems like there’s not enough time to get them all done. Maybe I should start with ebooks? Yes, that seems like a good idea. But I have dreams of holding my book in hand. I loved paining all of those trees. What about giving the ebook away for free? I want readers to imagine and be curious with every turn of the page.

I’ve been thinking about all of the lessons I’ve learned. I’ve learned that I’m not an illustrator. I doodle. I paint. I CREATE. Ok yes I illustrate but I realize my talent is along the lines of, The day the crayons quit or Eric Carle’s collage art. I could do that. Well. not like Carle BUT like ME.

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I long to create  this type of work  everyday of my life. That’s why I painted this poster for #HOMwork. Painting this made me think of all the books I’ve either written or started painting.

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I feel like I just have to share my work. I have days where I paint thoughts that pop in my head.

I have days where I work on books. Winning the scholarship could help me write my books the way I see them in my head.

-there are no impossibilities

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Can’t draw right?

I can’t seem to draw Ellie right. I  keep trying and erasing. I guess tonight’s not a good day to draw.   I can’t seem to concentrate. My drawing feels to forced. I keep erasing  and erasing and ERASING…stuck in the same place. Do I draw my characters as I have? For some reason I’m  drawn to this historical vintage feel. I sketched clothes and animals BUT my drawing skills– wish I could just draw.

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It was so much easier to paint trees. Wait …maybe I should take what I’ve learned from my Wise Trees book? Yeah I painted trees with Q-tips and melted crayon. It was awesome!

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Note to self. Stick to the book deadline. Publish Wise Trees.  Publish Wise Trees. You’ve talked about it.Now walk your talk. Keep writing and creating. Keep making art. It’s all you can  do. Create your art.

–there are no impossibilities

 

 

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Fingerprint Tree

I love this tree. Is there someway I can include this in my book? Yeah probably not. Literally, I placed myself in my art. Well, just my fingerprints but it was so much fun!

 

The paint was old and by old I mean the water separated from paint…if that’s possible. Ugh what a mess! But I was determined to paint something awesome.

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My curiosity was invited to play so what else could I do but, PLAY.

I mixed my color with very little water, dipped my finger in color and panted. I painted until my tree looked right…paint with my eyes not my hands is a genius idea. Thanks Michelangelo.

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Oh I had no clue what to do. Yet this beautiful tree happened.

My trunk is lookin’ good. Which brings me to fall. Fall is the time to shed all negativity, doubt,fear,worry and get ready for the beauty to come. The beautiy is all the awesome ideas to come.

 

This fall tree is in my wise trees book.

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I’m ready to launch my first book, making sure all the details are taken care of.

I’ve started working on an elf book, she’s Ellie now. Her friends Gus, Ralphie and Nikki help her realize that togetherness and love build the biggest and bestest tree in the world…as Ellie would say.

-There are no impossibilities

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A star is born…

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the words you have talent…everybody has talent…what are you going to say…how are you going to say it…

What ever you say, say it with everything you got…WITH YOU

this movie hit me hard…made me FEEL what it truly means to be an artist. Everybody has a story…a voice but not everybody can find the courage to just be. You don’t need fancy costumes or lights or dancers…just sing SING THE SONG…

yeah that’s where I’m at right now.

 

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Painting this and that

I read my book today. Oh I read a post about an illustrator who said she loves writing stories. That’s me. I’ve always had such an imagination.

How else can I explain looking at a palm tree and thinking hair breezing in the sun without a care. Yes there’s a palm tree in my book.

Today I painted sketches that for years have been locked away in my imagination and a sketchbook. They are weird I admit, but they are me. I love it!🍓 This Wise Trees book has helped me realize…

There are no impossibilities

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crayons not masking fluid

Working on a book is harder than I thought. I had to take a break, catch my breath and keep myself in a happy place. OK so the original didn’t turn out so good, but there’s going to be lots of not so good ideas in this journal. I must practice.

I have gone through lots of watercolor paper and what I thought were genius ideas. Today I, for the like I don’t hundredth time, I messed up on the love poem again but the words are awesome and I’ll get it right.

In between my projects I work on fun projects to take a break . I just had to redo this one. I love the ripped paper near the words in case you lose it.

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New version looks good. I just wish I hadn’t used a dirty eraser to erase some of the pencil markings. Why did I do that? Oh well you learn things.

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How will this design look on a positive pouch?

Ok now that I had a little fun it’s time to go back to the book editing.

Notes:

  • use crayons with crayons is easier instead of using masking fluid
  • use bold colors on a light wash background
  • use a light pencil to sketch out your idea first
  • observe flowers before you paint them to get a sense of contrast.

 

Imagine all the impossibilities that are possible.